Jan 29, 0000

When my gran
journal instead of paying rent. I was hoping he would learn something.
He did.

Just not enough.

When my grandson came to live with me, I told him he had to keep a
journal instead of paying rent. I was hoping he would learn something.
He did.

Just not enough.

I’ve been helping grandpa fix up t
all the time. He’s an asshole. Grandpa doesn’t even believe in God.

Sometimes I think about
brains spattering everywhere on the greenhouse glass and the floor. Everything is like that. I think
about Dina and I feel it so much I feel as if I
grandpa and I feel like one of those school shooting kids. When I get happy or when something is
funny, its like I’m going to explode. Last night Hannah and mom and me were playing Balderdash
where you make up definitions to words and I started making up funny definitions and we were
laughing so hard that mom said she was going

I’ve been helping grandpa fix up the greenhouse. Everything I do is wrong and grandpa criticizes me
all the time. He’s an asshole. Grandpa doesn’t even believe in God.

Sometimes I think about killing him. I think about taking a shovel and bashing his head in and the
brains spattering everywhere on the greenhouse glass and the floor. Everything is like that. I think
about Dina and I feel it so much I feel as if I don’t do something I’m going to die. I get mad at
grandpa and I feel like one of those school shooting kids. When I get happy or when something is
funny, its like I’m going to explode. Last night Hannah and mom and me were playing Balderdash
where you make up definitions to words and I started making up funny definitions and we were
laughing so hard that mom said she was going to pee her pants.


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