Jan 15, 0000

When my gran
journal instead of paying rent. I was hoping he would learn something.
He did.

Just not enough.

When my grandson came to live with me, I told him he had to keep a
journal instead of paying rent. I was hoping he would learn something.
He did.

Just not enough.

I am dying of boredom.

I can’t watch TV any more. I
are pretty and happy and fake. Nobody on TV loses their leg
loses their job at Shop-More.

When Rebekah shows up at our farm and fucks me on the carpet of our trailer, I will st
TV again.

Something is happening to me.

Me and Hannah are growing up fast. We are k
out for each other. I think back to who I was before Christmas. I was a moron. I didn’t know
anything.

When we first got here it used to take me a couple of hours to do the worksheets. Now I
one in fifteen minutes. It’s not that I’m a jillion times smarter. I just used to spend a lot of time
staring at the wall or some fu
these stupid worksheets so I am burning through the fuckers in a hurry. I’m going to take the GED
February 4th

I go for walks all the time. P
here. Sometimes there’s so much going on in my head I think I’m going crazy but actua
the time its a good kind of crazy.

Jesus spent forty days in the wilderness.

I’m not sure how he feels about me telling him Fuck You. Sometimes I think I’m going to hell, but
sometimes I think Jesus probably knows exactly how I’m feeling and he’s felt
was the point, that’s why

I was walking and there’s this big tree that’s white. I looked up through the branches of the tree, I
could see these white branches and this blue blue sky. Standing with my head back and the sun
coming through the white branches and blue sky made my eyes water and made me feel dizzy. It
was really beautiful. I th
anything before.

Look at the sky. The sky is beautiful.

I am dying of boredom.

I can’t watch TV any more. It’s so stupid and nothing ever happens. It’s not real. People on TV
are pretty and happy and fake. Nobody on TV loses their leg in a factory accident. Nobody ever
loses their job at Shop-More.

When Rebekah shows up at our farm and fucks me on the carpet of our trailer, I will start watching
TV again.

Something is happening to me.

Me and Hannah are growing up fast. We are kind of on our own now. We’re going to have to look
out for each other. I think back to who I was before Christmas. I was a moron. I didn’t know
anything.

When we first got here it used to take me a couple of hours to do the worksheets. Now I can do
one in fifteen minutes. It’s not that I’m a jillion times smarter. I just used to spend a lot of time
staring at the wall or some fucking thing. Now that I can’t stand TV there’s nothing to do but
these stupid worksheets so I am burning through the fuckers in a hurry. I’m going to take the GED
February 4th

I go for walks all the time. Part of the reason is to get away from the trailer. I feel different out
here. Sometimes there’s so much going on in my head I think I’m going crazy but actually a lot of
the time its a good kind of crazy.

Jesus spent forty days in the wilderness.

I’m not sure how he feels about me telling him Fuck You. Sometimes I think I’m going to hell, but
sometimes I think Jesus probably knows exactly how I’m feeling and he’s felt the same way and that
was the point, that’s why God let himself become real like us.

I was walking and there’s this big tree that’s white. I looked up through the branches of the tree, I
could see these white branches and this blue blue sky. Standing with my head back and the sun
coming through the white branches and blue sky made my eyes water and made me feel dizzy. It
was really beautiful. I thought, I never looked at this before. I thought, I never really looked at
anything before.

Look at the sky. The sky is beautiful.


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